Feeling sad, hurt, and just really lonely

Ugh!! I'm soo annoyed right now! My boyfriend is out and about with his friends having fun, and it's like he doesn't even care about me! ugh! I know this is so adolescent...but I have to vent somewhere, I have no else to vent too! So, sorry you get to hear my dumb immature ranting. Lately he's been acting differently towards me...and I'm afraid he's just getting sick of me and doesn't really love me like he says he does. It's like he lacks a common sense chip! He's so dense sometimes, or at least acts like it!!!! ugh!!! I love this guy too much I think. I need to get my friends base back...I depend way to much on him. It's like he doesn't get that some of his actions just plain out bother me! I don't know why he doesn't see it. Dumb, dumb, dumb! He's just so distant lately. It really bothers me...I'm afraid he's just gonna up and leave me..then that will make me feel so worthless..cuz if I can't keep him interested, then who will I be able too!!!!!! I don't think he really loves me that much :( or at least lately it hasn't really felt like it. I just feel so sad...and I wanna cry. I'm really trying not to nag him, but I want to go off on him so badly! I feel really hurt :( :( Just been feeling extra crazy lately, and I'm never usually like this. He's making me feel this way, another reason why I'm just not happy with him right now.

Anywho, I feel a bit better now. Thank you very listening. I know this is more ramble than anything else, and doesn't make much sense at all; but that's ok. It works for me!

Back to anatomy! ugh!