Uh Oh! Is another move in the cards....hmmm...

OK! Much has happened the last couple of days!

For starters...I think I'm in a new bout of "depression" or something to that effect. I'm not proud of it...but that's just the way things are. I've come to the point where I don't care anymore about anything. I've gone completely past caring. I don't care where we live or where we end up...

So...moving on.

It looks like we might be leaving Illinois a whole lot sooner than I excepted. Through a series of "incidents" Frank will most likely be losing his job.
Now I'm all for leaving Illinois, but I don't want to go back and live in Oroville and....it's not going to be any fun with him out of a job. For who knows how long :(
I guess I can't have my cake and eat it too, but I do hope the Lord provides another job for him.

Oh well...I don't really care much anymore...whatever happens, happens!

I'll update later.

gypsy

Schoolwork...BaBy!

Well, I'm starting to pray extra hard these days! Most of my praying subjects consist of one thing...my schoolwork! I'm actually not doing half bad in this department....but I still have some substantial amount of work left...namely in SPANISH!!! I really liked Spanish last yr., but this year...it pretty much sucks!!!

Then there's my ESSAYS!!! Don't even get me started on that.....they are cramming Soho many essays into the last quarter...it's not even funny:( OH, well...I have to do them..so I might as well get them over with!! Here we go.....

Well, that's all I came to write. I don't have anything interesting I feel like discussing or complaining about :) So...I'll end this.

Catch up with ya later!

gypsy

I want to cry!

I think I'm going to SCREAM!!!!!!

I don't know what to do. The guy that I've mentioned before, well....I can't stop thinking about him. I WANT to, because I know that nothing will ever happen...but that doesn't stop my feelings or my thoughts!! What am I going to do???

I SOOOOO much want to e-mail him.....but I know that if I do...one he won't respond. He NEVER responds to his e-mails....(at least the ones from me.) Second, I don't want to keep e-mailing him...cuz, if I do...then he might think somethings up...and I don't want him to think anything!!!

Gosh, I'm soo pathetic!!!! What am I going to do??? The thougtht of going back to Cali excits me...for one main reason....I might be able to see him!!!! See, what I mean? How much more pathetic can I get??

I don't know what to do. I've tried to squish these feelings and thoughts down...hoping that they'll disappear, but they never do!!

I don't know. If I knew that maybe he likes me even a little bit.....then maybe...it would be so much easier for me.
But he'll probably eventually find some girl....and really fall in love with her....and then I'll be the one that gets hurt...not him.

Gosh, this sucks completely!!!

He's such a great guy. I've known him since I was like 4...he's about 3 yrs. older than I am. He's a christian. He loves the Lord. He's super sweet to girls. He's a total gentleman!!!! I think that at one point....a looooooong time ago...he liked me.....but that doesn't count for much. I don't know about now....and now is what I really want to know.

He's never had a real girlfriend! He's gone on dates before....but he's never gotten serious with anyone. He doesn't drink, smoke....or anything...the only swear word I've ever heard him say....was "hell." That's it!!!

I know this all makes him sound like a goody tooshie...but he's not. He's just a gem...compared to other guys out there these days.

Ugh....this is pathetic...I feel like screaming and crying and soooooo much more!!! It's going to hurt bad...when he does eventually find a girl and falls in love with her!!!!

Ok, I'm ending this before I start to cry!

Later for now!

My life motto!

Missing

I WANT TO LEAVE 'THIS PLACE' SO BAD!!!!!!!!!! (I'm not at liberty to disclose what location I'm at, to do so would be unsafe:))

I WANT TO GO BACK TO CALI!!!!! I MISS IS SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!! *crying* :(

Well, I'm glad I got that off my chest. I feel so much better!!!

later,
gypsy

lots of nothing

I've come to the conclusion that I'm a very moody person. I believe more so when I'm on my periods. I know it's kind of gross, but that's the truth. Also, no one ever reads my blogs, so, I think I'm pretty safe...I can write pretty much whatever I feel like. :)

The last couple of days I've bee....I can't remember what I was going to write.

Well, it's late and I need to get to bed. I have to get lots of schoolwork done tomorrow.

I'll write later, when I get the chance.

Later for now.

gypsy