Having some doubts that I hope are cleared soon.

I'm in major limbo right now...or maybe it's just major doubt. Either way...I'm stuck. I am "planning" on doing the nursing program and everything, and I know it will be a great opportunity to do it...it will open many doors for me, but regardless of all of that, I'm still having my doubts. I sure hope the Lords clears them up for me...( and should I be excepting that??? hmm...not sure.) Anyway, I'm just not sure I want to plunge into all of this. But I do NEED an education and have some sort of career that offers a degree !!! I don't know, I'm just really confused. My saving grace is I don't have to know everything right now...that's the beauty of growing up...you don't always have to have all the answers..or any of them for that matter. I have about a yr. and half of general ed. to do before I have to "finalize" what I'm going to do with my life, and hopefully by then I'll know.

Well, I'll be starting school the 20th...and at first I was looking forward to it, but now...I don't know...not so much anymore. Hopefully, when I start and everything..I'll get more excited and really enjoy it!!! Part of me wishes I could fast forward my life over...hmm...the next 4 yrs. but I know I would miss out on life's wonder and magic. It's just hard. But who am I that I should be complaining. I've got live wonderful...I'm healthy..I do have some "brains"....lol.(though at times I wonder where they've gone??) I have people who love me and I them!! So, in reality I don't have any room or reason to complain. So, I suppose I should shut-up now. lol. It's a really good thing no one actually reads my blogs!! :)

I feel much better after venting. It always feels excellent to vent, especially when you get to write it out. Somehow, it gives me better satisfaction!! :) Well, I'll close this for now.
Until later...
much more contented gypsy

Plans..dreams...ideas..

So, I'm back...from the dead. lol. Not really...just thought I'd start this out a bit more amusing. To see if I could get you to laugh. Did I yet?? :)

Ok, moving on. I do that well. lol.

So, a few days ago, I had a bit of a dramatic meltdown, but I recovered fairly quickly!! Yay for me! The meltdown had to do with the fact of...I wasn't sure I wanted to really full fledged enter the nursing program, but I've made my decision...(once and for all...hopefully) that I will stick to it and get my education. NOT only will it be excellent money, I will also be educating myself and will be able to help and care for people in the future!! After I finish the nursing program, then I will be WAY more flexible to pursue my acting more seriously!! I still want to do that with all my heart, but I need a means to live..and this is it. I'm trying to be smart and responsible. I sure hope I'm doing the right thing. I'm pretty sure I am...it's nice to know that I have the Lord to rely on...especially when I'm not sure!! It comes in pretty handy then. :)

So, here is my grand plan! Plans always change with the circumstances of life and such...but we do need dreams to survive. Something to look forward too. At least I do...it's pretty much what I thrive on. Anyway, back to what I was saying...I want to get my RN BS..when I graduate..I want to move to San Diego...Oceanside..maybe..then once I'm established, I want to pursue my acting!! It's just an idea...so, what do you think?? It's great, right? lol.

Well, it's just dreams, plans, ideas....I'll update later.

peace,
gypsy