2007's almost here!

Wow! I can't believe it..it's almost 2007!!! It's so wild to think about. I'm gonna be 17 soon, it's kinda weird when I think about that too. Well, I'm here to update. Let's see...I'm sloooooowly getting used to the fact I have to live here, but to be perfectly honest, I just don't see how people can handle small town living. I really don't like getting real personable with everyone. I don't like the fact to much that everyone knows your business...it's strange and weird to me. It's hard going from pretty much city to a town that has less than someone of the schools in bigger areas! Trust me...it was a big shocker. OK, I know no one wants to here me gripe about my small town experiences. LoL. Well, I'm still trying to catch up in my schoolwork, so I don't have to repeat my Jr. yr. That would suck!

I'll update later.

peace out;)

Looking up

This is just a quick update. Things are going really goooood! I am doing much better.
I think that I have finally accepted this move and now I'm moving on! LoL. Anyway, I've been working on my schoolwork (just for the record, I'm doing independent study) and doing really well in it. Right now, I'm taking AP English and well to say the least I can't stand it! I have to write a essay on a poem and analyze the poem, and I don't understand the poem. How do you analyze something when you don't understand it? Beats me! Well, I have to splitzville. I'll keep it updated! Bye for now.

the not so wandering gyspy

Crazy or not?

I'm here for an update. It's almost 1:00 a.m. and I'm still up!!! BAD!! I have to get to bed so I'm making this short. Everything is going just fine. I'm still adjusting but that's to be excepted considering that I've only been here about a week. I was just on the phone with my dad and he was giving me the "talk" about life.
Anyway, in the course of the conversation he was asking me what I want to do when I get out of highschool. I said I haven't decided yet. Then he asked what my interest are I said well I like photography and I really like acting and the theatre. And mind you he's very supportive of everything but when I mention one of those two he pretty much tells me that they're "pipe dreams." If anyone happens to read this I would really like your input on the matter just to hear what you think. Am I crazy for wanting to do it? Am I just a "dreamer?" See, I strongly believe in that God has a plan for my life and I want to do whatever it is. But would God give me these desires and interest for nothing? I have no idea. I'm still searching for those answers. Well, so much for short. I have to get. Update later.

Well, for the record my last blog was well....pathetic to say the least. I was probably having a bad day or something. Anyway, I said I would update but I've been so busy and didn't have a computer...so I have been unable too. Where to start, for starters we did make it to Illinois:( The people I do have to say are really nice! But like my brother says, "There are nice people everywhere;)" It's has been interesting. Ok, I just moved from an area that was city compared to where I'm living now...lol. The town we are currently living in has about 1200 people...give or take a few. As you can imagine EVERYONE knows everyone. Especially us new people!! If your the new face in the crowd you can bet on it that they'll notice. Which has it advantages and disadvantages. I met a girl that moved here about a yr. ago from AZ. for the same reasons we did and she was telling me that all kinds of rumors will be going around about us. She wanted to give me a heads up to that I could be prepared. She was telling me that when they first came all kind of rumors were spreading around about her (the people that are making up the rumors are kids....highschool mainly) and one of them was...a pretty wild one too....that she was pregent!!! Can you believe that?? I was absolutely shocked! So if I don't get anything out of this move....one thing shouldn't fail about it and that is this should be interesting!!;) So, as you can see small town minded. I'm already starting to feel stifled and I haven't been here a complete week yet!!! I'm city girl at heart and this small town life isn't going to be easy. But I do have to remember to be thankful and not complain about every little thing. Let me tell you it's a daily struggle, I tend to want to hole up in my bedroom and feel sorry for myself, but I just have remember that God is in control of everything and everything will work out for his glory!! Easier said then done! LoL. Well that's the latest update for now.

gyspy

I DON'T WANT TO GO!!

It's here. My worst nightmare has come true! We're moving to Illinois! And there is nothing that I can do about it. Although I'd like to pretend I can do something about it. So, in about two wks. my life will change forever. And the thing is I don't want it to. I guess I don't have a choice. I just feel like crying, which I've already done by the way. I have to go. But I'll keep it updated.

Moving

Well, I'm here to update. It looks like (to my disappointment) that we are indeed moving to Illinois. It may not be right away, but it is coming:( I guess it won't be so bad, but I just have to say for the record that we are moving because Frank got a pastor job there. And what that will mean in a few months, I honestly don't know. Let's just say that his "techniques" worry us. That's about all I can say without "putting him down." I just took a trip to Illinois and it is soooo much different there. The lifestyle and everything. NOTHING is the same. It doesn't even have any close similarites to good ole' California! When I was a bit younger I used to wish that I could live anywhere but California. I guess the saying is true "Careful what you wish for" you just might get it. I been in many states throught the U.S. and I can honestly say without reservation that California is by far one the best places to live. So, my mom is going out to Illinois to check it out and to see if she can find a place to live. I guess in some small way I'm secretly hoping that she won't find anything so that we don't have to go out right away. I do want what God has for my life and if that means going to Illinois then so be it, but everyonce in awhile human nature kicks in. That's just life. Well that it for now.

Peace out,
gyspy

Wishing

So, here I am again. I'm in a better mood today, which I consider pretty good. Considering the fact that I don't have days like this very often. When I have days I like this I consider myself very blessed. I have beening watching the first season of Veronica Mars lately and to say the least it has been very interesting. It's a show about a teenage detective and her greatest weapon is revenage. It's very serious there's not a lot of "fun" in the show, but somehow I love it. Maybe it's because she so good at solving crimes or something. I don't really know but I do know that at times I find myself wishing just a little bit that I was as "smart" as she it. But of course I know that her "smartness" comes from the wrtiters of the show. But wouldn't it be kinda cool if someone wrote out our lives like that and would could be "smart" and kick butt just like her? Sometimes I think that it would be. But I'll never know..now will I?

More questions..no answers!

Here I am again. My life feels like its going in major slow motion..and I'm talking really, really, slooooow! Almost to the point that it's stopped. Ok, I know that my life is great compared to other people around me....and I'm sorry for being ungratful. But come on..I would like the chance to help the ones that are hurting around me. But I can't even do that. Everything that I try to do..just seems so hard to acomplish. I wonder why? But I guess all the hardships and fast balls that life throws us are just to build character in us and make us better people, but why does the process have to be so hard and so looong? I just wish there was some shorter way...around it all. LoL...I sound like some person that has gone throught something tragic. But really I haven't..I'm just dealing with the normal fast balls in life..with extra "omph" in it. Well I think that's all for now.

gyspy

Lost

I feel as if I'm lost in a sea of sand. I can't find my way out, the more I try the more I get lost. I wish that there were directions or a map that showed that way out but there isn't. I have to rely on my out wits and knowledge of the "sea of sand" to find my way out of it gripping clutches.

Well, I just created this blog thingy...and I'm not even sure what exactly this is. This should be interesting. I was told that this would be good for improving my writing skills. I sure hope they were right. Well later for now.


gyspy